It's not that I don't like this city. Porto Alegre has beautiful places and is relatively safe - but I've had enough. Enough of this place and this country that represents absolutely nothing of my personality. My mom says she doesn't mind me living abroad because I need to experience new places 'till I find out this is the best place for me; I really, really hope she's wrong. I'd hate to think that this is it, that I won't be able to fit anywhere else. 
And I hate that fucking money is the only thing keeping me here. Family, friends, mother language? Yeah I'll miss it all, but you know what, it would be awesome to wake up someday and actually feel happy about it. All I need to do is get into college and bust my ass off working so I can afford a one-way plane ticket.